Everyone in this world is important and we should stop being humble about what be do.I'm not saying you got to put your head up really up high till your nose touches the sky but just be PROUD and HAPPY with what you do.Don't get what I'm trying to say?I'll give you a scenario!Let's name the two people in my story Jack and Bill.

Jack:Hey!You're really good at what you do.
Bill:Nah,nono.I'm just a butcher.it's really nothing.I just cut meat all day.
Jack:Hello?How can you say that?If it wasn't for you butchers we would all be eating a cow WHOLE!

Get me?If you don't,omfg you're fucking stupid and pls get a life.Haha,just joshing.Hehe.

I came to think about some stuff just now.I know we should be honest with the ones we love most.But do we always have to be so honest that it can hurt?Do we always have to tell the truth even if it hurts the ones we love so bad?I'm not making sense.Fuck it.

LOVE~

Maybe one day not too far away we can turn all our dreams into memories~

That line is just stuck in my head.From Bobby Tinsley's-I'm Missing You.Nice song!(:

Saz is apparently not around to entertain me online.She's away zapin-ing and silat-ing her life away on stage at SCH!wooohooo,my sexy friend can dance zapin la dey! I miss hanging out with Saz last Saturday.It was good seeing her,Hash and Mikoh.It's that feeling i longed for during the holidays.Just the feeling of being around friends that you're really comfortable with and can just let loose(: I want to see those 3 again.Then we can together SMACK THATTT~ and become the KECOHRABLE FOURSOME AGAIN(:

Listening to Canon In D right now.I don't know why.But it has been on my playlist for quite awhile.Diana and I are over): I'm marrying my donkey and she can go to hell with her monkey.HAHAHAHA(: I'm so terrible.

Nerice is absolute fun to talk to.Her pure innocence and not so innocent.LOL.I'm not making sense.NEVERMIND.

Gonna collect my album this Saturday(hopefully) from Naufal.Then I can finally enjoy my psykelecticz EP even if Saz has listened to it for A WEEK by then! GRRRR.

Okay,I'm off.

Your presence makes me feel secure
I really love to see you smile.
I really wish you were mine again
All the stupid mistakes I made in the world.

LOVE LOVE THIS SONG(:
goes out to all my besties,cliquemates and all of my friends out there.I love you guys till death.

I know the sound is not very good,but if you guys listened closely you'd figure out the lyrics(:
"a friend is better than that"

I miss band plenty):

Musical Evening 2006 was absolutely BLISS(:

Eventhough all of us were tired from running around,carrying instruments,the long waiting time and the hectic rehearsals,WE ALL ENJOYED IT IN THE END(: Because every single blood,sweat and tears we put in PAID OFF.

I LOVE CGSSB.I will miss Musical Evening.BADLY):

I dunno why I was pissed for a moment during Musical Evening yesterday though.Firstly,stockings tore TWICE and then some other things had to happened and it pissed me off badly.But!My lovely sec 1 junior,Nerice made it all better with her stupid slangs and jokes!I love that girl la can!Hahaha(:

Gave Diana a ride home yesterday.And that silly darling fell into a drain and bumped into my parents' car.SO MUCH FOR TRYING TO IMPRESS.haha!

I LOVE MY BELOVED HUSBAND DIANA KASWADI!I PROMISE I WILL NEVER GO HONEYMOON-ING WITHOUT YOU EVER AGAIN OKAY?PLEASE PROMISE NOT TO CHEAT ON ME EITHER!
hahahaha omg,that girl is so irritatingly cute(:

K,i'm off.TIRED

SPEAKEASY YESTERDAY WAS AN ABSOLUTE BLAST(:
Especially with Mikoh,Saz and Hash as company!
We are like the kecohrable foursome!
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1.Alyph of Sleeq and I(He cheated at first.He wanted to tiptoe!hahaha.)
2.Hash,I,Saz,Alyph,Mak Saz and Mikoh.
3.Rauzan performing while sitting down.
4.Rauzan and the absolutely cool Mak Cik!SHE PUT HER BNF's up!Yay,she's part of the movement!hahaha
5,6&7.Mikoh needed 3 attempts to get the picture right!By the 3rd picture,Rau and I were tired of smiling thus my scrunched face and Rau without his BNF's up!
8.Rau and I.Applause for Saz pls.She only needed ONE ATTEMPT.
9.Saz and I.Saz is crazy lovely company!
10.I and Hash.She is absolutely adorable!
11.The Cool Mak Cik with Naufal aka Young of Psykelecticz.

WOOHOO.

Had fun yesterday(:
Cabbed to SAM with Mikoh.
Saz and her mom were waiting for us outside(:
Saz is awesome!
It wasn't awkward at all when I saw her.
It's like dah kenal lamer like that.
hahaha.

Then wait wait around.
AND I SAW ANDREA<3333333
I've missed that woman plenty!
woohoo.
She's still so small and adorable(:

Then ok got in seated.
Performance was awesome!
Chaz Ali did really great despite his lips being swollen after an accident.
Poor him.
But yup,I thought he did a wonderful job.
Rau performed millionwear with alyph!
YAYY.
i like that song!
freaky z came along later!
just to promote his performances.
hahaha.
but he is damn cute la can!
PSYKES LAUNCHED THEIR EP.
LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.
tapi aku amat bodoh aku luper nak beli.
memang mintak kener smack aku ini.
K after all the performance took pictures!

took pic with alyph.
haha,he is hilarious.
TIPTOE!
playcheat ah alyph.
hahaha.
k,alyph's a very nice guy.
he was like You guys coming down on 3rd dec!Come down ehk go eh!
nice guy.
very friendly.

saz took pic with syarif and psykes also.

RAU DIDN'T RECOGNIZE ME AT FIRST
GERAM SAYA.
fie:rau kenal tak?kenal tak?
rau:tak.tak kenal[gives the who are you face!]
fie:eheh saz kau tengok dier punyer blog admin pon dier tak kenal!
rau:OH OH OH KENAL KENAL!relax relax[gives the scared face]
HAHAHA.
funny la that guy.
Rau made Saz mom do the BNF sign!
HAHAHAHA.
so cute la(:
as you can see from the picture.
rau was like,pls mak cik!satu je mak cik!plsplspls.
hahaha.

K,then after that went outside.
meet freakyz.
he is a nice guy too.
hilarious as well.
All the great people!

Then walked to dhoby ghaut with the kecohrable kids.
hahaha.
SMACK THAT!
lol,nvm.
inside joke;D
MY LEG WAS SO PAINFUL LA CAN.
hash said i walk macam dancing.
siak jek!
then at Dhoby Ghaut station..
Saz prasan Naufal and I prasan Aidil/Malek.
HAHAHA.
we were singing the intro to poltergeist(remix)
KWANG KWANG.
kecoh kecoh.
I wonder what saz's mom thought of us ehk.
HAHA(:

k,that was all that happened.
great night indeed.

2 THUMBS UP TO ALL THE PERFORMERS.
AWESOME.
AWESOME AWESOME!

Today was a happysad damn somehow.I don't know how but yes it's like that.Complicated?Not really.

I woke up at 6am with the worse cramps ever!I was *still* rolling on the floor and it sucked balls because I was already late for band.Left home finally.Reached band 15 mins late.Thank God that the band was moving up their instruments and stuff when I reached.Had 2 rounds of rehearsals.I think everyone did a good job today.*Applauds* I think my juniors are doing really well.And!Nerice is absolute fun to sit next to.She is crappy/crazy/naive/innocent/gossipy in her own way.And I like all of the characters of her I stated.Hehe.Innocent but very gossipy sometimes!Haha!

During band's break of first round rehearsal,we all went down to bandroom.And we had Truth Of Dare.People who played:Hanisa,Adilah,Priscilla,Belle,Aishah,Other Trumpeters and yours truly.I had to do a SHABOOYA CHEER and HUMP EMI.I dunno why I got all the most silly things.Hanis had to kiss priscilla on the cheeks and armycrawl her way to brina and hug her.HAHAHA.Priscilla had to kiss hanis on the cheeks too.It took her two tries though.Adilah had to act sexy in front of the piano.Belle had to seduce fadhilah and she said PEOPLE CALL ME SEXY BUT YOU CAN CALL ME TONIGHT.HAHAHA(: Aishah had the ask the bookshop lady AUNTIE I WANT MCFLURRY.hahahahahahahaha.Today was fun!

After band,we were supposed to help percussion carry instruments.Wanted to help diana carry some chime thing or whatever but I was screaming my life away because I knew I was gonna fall.So priscilla helped me.Then PRISCILLA FELL 5 STEPS DOWN right in front me!I was so shocked I didn't say any other words except OMG ARE YOU OKAY ARE YOU OKAY ARE YOU OKAY PRIS?Haha!Thank God she was okay!Polished instrument after that.And I was off!

Okay,that's all that happened today.
Pretty ok.

LOVE~

HAHAHAHA,I'M SUCH A FUCKER!

ilu.
And i'm happy we still talk to each other.
We'll act like the world is ours,won't we?~

One by one,they are fading away and new ones are coming replacing them in my heart.Do you get it?Forget it.Only I'll understand I guess.

I just sort of noticed something today.Friendships that last for an eternity is because it was sincere from the start.Friendships that don't last long is because either one party or both are just making use of each other for entertainment or their own insecurities.That's what I feel at least.I mean everyone is entitled an opinion right?Don't take it to heart what I say here.That's just what I feel about friendships lately.I mean,when I think of people that I were close to and people I used to hang out with and now we NEVER go out anymore and we feel weird when talking to one another,I ask myself WHAT HAPPEN?Did I change?Did she/he change?Was she/he even sincere from the start?

I shouldn't be complaining too much.It's not like as if I lost my whole social circle.It's just that 2 or 3 friends that I cared straight from the heart but we don't even talk much now.What more hang out.

Today,I almost cried.Guess why?Because I couldn't go for the farewell because of my menstrual cramps and my stupid busted back.My menstrual cramps was at its worse today.I used to raise an eyebrow when Hanis said her cramps were so bad that she could roll on the floor.Then today,I finally experienced it.I was rolling my life away from my bedroom to parents bedroom and back again more than 10 times.Someone shoot me!

That's all for today.I'm off.

LOVE~

Everybody's blog is getting bitchier by the minuteSECOND.They are all talking about one another,they know it but yet when facing one another they act like normal and nothing ever happened.Is the capability to blog making people nuts in one way or another?Having facades and what nots.It's a little scary=/

As for Myspace,it's becoming a fucking competition.Who gets the most comments,who has the most number of friends on their list,who has the prettiest editted pic and blablabla..WTF?!This is absolutely nuts.I hate people who add me and they shut their traps.What's the purpose of adding me up then?![starts chanting]competition,competition.HMM.

Talked to Saz and Mikey last night.Quite fun.Mikey is a lil bit merepek but nvm.He's still the big irritating bro that The O Fam loves(: Haha!He was being a moron and asked,I LOST MY MUSCLE ANYONE SEEN IT?So I answered,Up your anus turn right turn left right again and straight up and bingo! And bloody hell that boy..he said..I'm dead,I have no insides!That boy is irritating shit i swear!Hahaha.

2 MORE DAYS TO SPEAKEASY!
2 MORE DAYS TO SEEING THE O FAM!
2 MORE DAYS TO SEEING ANDREAAAAAA!
and of course..
2 MORE DAYS TO SEEING MIKOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm done here.

LOVE~

Dad got a job offer at a new hotel.He is in dilemma whether to accept it or not.I guess it's pretty hard for him.He's been working at Fullerton Hotel for a long time and he is comfortable with that place.However,the pay for the job offer is much better and we could probably lead a better life if he gets the job.Hmmm.Dad's meeting the General Manager of the hotel on Friday at Liang Court Starbucks.What a cool General Manager I'd say!I mean c'mon,Which GM would meet at STARBUCKS?Haha!OMG,I really need to get a hold of myself!Haha.

Today was a boring day.I needed to rest my busted back so I coudln't help out with the decoration of the band room and making pompoms with Hanis.Haha!I spent half my life sleeping.Other than that I was sms-ing Mikoh and Saz.OH!Diana's back:D I missed her!Haha.

Tmr's Sec 4 farewell.Bet there's going to be all those tears.Believe it or not,I will miss the Sec 4s.No matter how naughty we are when we scrutinize them,disgusted by them,hate them for giving us punishment,they still taught us what we needed to know and still cared somehow or rather(:

Date with Mikoh this Saturday.I get to see The O Fam as well as BNF Family!This should be great.I get to see Saz!(:

Ok,I'm off for now!

Today was one of my high happy happy days(: I saw all my darlings today<3 Mikoh,Syira and Gadis in order.Happy(: They are my dose of happiness.

Came down late for band today.I had a really terrible swollen back.Somehow,I sprained it yesterday night and it was pretty bad.Pretty scary.I could hardly get out of bed=/ but by 0845h i felt fine after the painkillers.So sprung out of bed,msged Hanis and rushed my butt to school.
Thankfully,when I reached school I wasn't disturbing the band or anything because they were having break!

Combined rehearsals started at about 1230h.I was pissed off because it was all supposed to be over by 1200 but I forgot all about it after being crazy and high with the bandmates.Haha.As usual,band always had to wait the longest.Blahblahblah.It's not fair!The dance get to rehearse COMPLETE but we only played our pieces like LESS THAN HALF.Like,whatever.BIAS!Nah,just kidding.The band is always very patient.No one grumbled today(:

After rehearsals,Miss Azilah ordered for us PIZZAS!Woohoo.Was nice of her.Canadian Pizza,I LIKE!Total of 8 boxes of Pizzas.Ate 2 pieces and I was so bloody full.

Packed instruments blablabla.Hanis and I volunteered to do the POMPOMS for Euphoniums and French Horn section!It's for the High School Musical Piece.Yup.This is gonna be fun.Hehe!

Left school after slacking around the band room for awhile.I managed to buy a top today.Hehe.Happy happy.Yayy.Rachel's not free for shopping tmr): Sad.Nvm,she promised B&J's next week anyway.Hurrah.

K,i'm off.Think I blogged quite a lot already today!

LOVE~

Today,band practice was awesome(: Hanis is back and so is Adilah.YAHOO.Hanis is back and that means I don't have to take her place anymore for the solo.HURRAH.

Today I saw MIKOH,SYIRA AND GADIS ALTOGETHER<3 Finally,I saw all the cliquemates IN THE SAME DAY!<333333333333333333333 PLENTY.

Tmr there is combined rehearsals.I can no longer wait for 27th Nov.Esplanade!I LIKE I LIKE.woohoooo.Esplanade's dressing room is like a fucking hotel!FUCKING COOL(:

I'm off.
Sleepy.

I need to open up my books and study soon.I have not touched on my holiday homework yet.So i think I better do it soon before it gets too late and before I know it I'll be burning the midnight oil on 020107.mmhmm.Going to put up my holiday homework up on the blog so that I can remember better.Haha.I think I really had no life in sec 3=/I just realized somehow.Monday to Thursday I'd finished class at 6.30pm.Travelling/Eating/Bathing Time.Study.Sleep.Study.School.DIE! Fridays,A LITTLE BIT MORE FREE THOUGH.haha..Whatever.I have to bear with the shit.Like Jasmine says,SUFFER THEN ENJOY.So true!Wise friend I have.

Today,hot topic with Saz is SCHOOL.haha.Okay I guess.

Okay,I'm off to put up my homework notice on my blog so that I'll remember.

LOVE~

Bring It On All Or Nothing rocks like nothing.
I'm blogging for the 3rd time.
Bored):
Someone please watch step up with me!
Eventhough I know what happened because I read Naufal from Psykes blog about it.
Shit,I knew I shouldn't have read it the minute I saw the words STEP UP.
oh wells.

I finally had a proper conversation on MSN with Rauzan after so longgggggggg.The boy's been busybusybusy with photoshoots for the album cover.OH YEAH,WAIT PATIENTLY FOR HIS ALBUM.ALL THE TRACKS ARE DONE.AND JUST WAITING TO LAUNCH.k bestbest.Don't worry Rau.As Administrator of BNF blog I will promote your album habis2 ok.Hahaha.And you'll find the perfect picture soon for your album cover!Haha.

Saz went offline.Mikoh not online.Sekejap lagik saya nak tidor(: Elfa curled her hair!
STYLE STYLE.hahaha but temporarily only la.Wash then gone.It curls It's Hot and It lasts!
HAHAHA,BEYONCE ADVERTISEMENT xD

kk i should really get my sleep.
Night World

I hate shopping in Singapore somehow or rather!I dislike it when the salesperson tags along behind you while you are walking around the shop.Don't they understand the term WINDOW SHOPPING?There's a reason why they came up with the word you know!People just want to look at things without any intention to buy because they might not like it.STOP FOLLOWING AROUND CAN?It's not as if someone's gonna steal a top/jeans/skirt/pants in the open!Especially when there's no fucking fitting room-___-" IRRITATING!

Oh yeah,I also absolutely despise the bloody WHATYOUCAMEINHEREANDYOULOOKATALLTHETHINGSMAKEMETAKEOUTBUTYOUARENOTFUCKINGBUYINGIT face.I hate I hate I hate.

You obviously know I had the worse shopping experience of my life.The girl walked behind so closely I almost wanted to shout at her YOU WANNA STICK TO MY BUTT INSTEAD?

Forget it.
I'm such a bitch tonight.

My blog's been away for a couple of days due to my stupidity.I copied and pasted a new blogskin code onto my template just wanting to preview it again.And,I cleverly clicked SAVE TEMPLATE instead of PREVIEW.So it saved the new layout without my links AND my tagboard.I was too lazy of an ass to go get it done all over again so I just placed my blog as UNDER CONSTRUCTION.Fie is absolutely fucking amazing(: You know you want to say it.Haha!Somebody get this girl a gun,pls.

Band members finally had a good break.But it's only temporary.We had no band on Thrusday and Friday.So..break's all the way till the coming Monday.And then it'll all be intensive practices.Finally,concert on 27th.YAHOOO.I can hardly wait.Absolutely ecstatic.Haha.

I have to go now.Mikoh's not online): Gadis is up on myspace.Saz is the only that entertains me online right now):

[EDIT]I was listening to My First Storybook and then I remembered about a close friend I lost 3 years ago.We used to be so close.I could really depend on her.I don't know what happened to her after we proceeded on to secondary school.I guess it was her inferiority towards me.We went to our 2 separate worlds like well you get my drift of what kind of secondary school worlds we went to right.Eversince then the way she talked to me it was all different.She thought that my tone was forever mocking what she was saying when I really wasn't.Honest.I asked about my other friends' opinion and they also said that there was nothing wrong with what I was saying.We just lost touch in the end and never spoke to her ever again because I changed my add and she thought I was purposely doing it to avoid her.She thought I did not want to have anything to do with a Selenger girl like her.Yes,I still remember what she said.And,it hurts me till today that she thought that was what I thought of her=/ Complicated?Maybe.

Come back,girl.
I miss you so much.
I need you back in my life.

seen you smile and cry,
and you never hold back,
reminisce those days made me recollect,
and i want you to know,
you will always be loved

Adapted from Rauzan's Always be Loved ft. Roze

You will always be loved~
[/EDIT]

Today was another typical boring day.
Hanging out at gramp's crib.
Gosh,that's sure some oxymoron.
HANG OUT.GRANDPARENTS CRIB.
ok,I think my point is clear.

I started out my day waking up at 0930 when momsie dearest PURPOSELY vacuumed my room to wake me up
Fantabolous,ain't that?
Heck,I shouldn't be complaining.
It's good enough that she made breakfast for me today after 12903809123 days.
But still,I think she should've cut me some slack since it was only 0930 and it is afterall a SATURDAY=/
nvm that.

I headed for my piano lessons at 1230.
I finally finished my C:1 piece.
I still have not started on B:2 piece yet.
Another worry,I might not be having the same piano teacher next yr!
wtf.
My teacher's contract ends this yr.
So if she is not continuing next yr,it means I have to go through the process of getting used to the next teacher's style of teaching and blablabla.
Bloody shit.

Headed for gramp's house.
blablablabla.

Now I'm home.
Talking to Saz(:

I'm super bored
and I had a pretty bad day today.

I dunno why but I don't seem to like it whenever my dad's at home.
He is uptight and lately,i find him very irritating.
Shit,what am I saying?
He is my dad afterall.
ho hum.
Controversial

I watched Da Vinci Code again today.
haha.
I loveeeeeeee that movie.

I'm talking about the most random stuffs.
Someone shoot me please!
Diana is so irritating.
And she loves my laughter a lot.
awwwwww,I love Diana.
HAHAHAHA(:

A couple more hours before I get my butt to school for band.I kinda miss band pracs actually.I haven't been able to go because band pracs end at 1pm and my lessons usually end at 3pm.Irritating):

I really don't know what I feel right now.I feel a little bit pissed/stupid/happy/bored/irritated/high all together):

Lately,the word Depressed has been used with absolute lack of understanding of the real meaning of the word.And it's so irritating!Just because I write some sad things on my blog it doesn't mean I'm DEPRESSED,get it?I'm just a little down that day and upset.When you're DEPRESSED,you practically lose your fucking mind together with your appetite.Sheesh,fuck those stupid juniors of mind.YEESH.

Can't you tell?I'm in a very irritated state right now.Everything gets on my nerves.Don't know why.But yet I wanna be happy.

Oh gosh,I need to get a hold of myself.

love!

come here!
what?
[wags the damn finger] fuck you![smacks forhead]

swear i wish i could do that to you!
giler should know who;D
i'm still not pleased with you.
yeah,sure.
the night before i was freaking pissed at you because of what you said.
yesterday night i felt so stupid being pissed at you because i was easily blinded by your words.
SO EASILY BLINDED.
and i don't even understand myself why i'm willing to do all this.
and guess what.
tonight,it's happening all over again.
i feel super irritated by you.
i still feel like you're using me.
AND!
if you become much more pushy,trust me,you'll get a surprise one fine day when you get on the internet.
cause as said by giler my meaness sudah terserlah.
DON'T EVER TRY ME OK.
JUST DON'T.

ughhh,ppl.
DEMANDING!
i cannot stand it.
maybe i shouldn't be such a brat afterall.
whatever!

forget it.
yesterday i went vivo city and i bought a green t-shirt.
then mommy came back and she bought the two t-shirts i wanted from converse!
green and black!
HAPPY(:

that's all folks.
love!

Bloody oldie bio teacher.She saw me outside the staffroom and she went,"Why you NEH(never) come for bio lesson yesterday!you know got project right?" in the most fucked up english and manner.I wish I had my big sign with me that wrote Please Rot In Hell.it was done while i was "mugging" EOYs.Hahaha.Freaking cool:D I'll put my life on the line and I bet I wasn't the only one who wasn't at the bio lesson yesterday you MAFAKA!Try saying MAFAKA you'll figure what it means sooner or later.

OH!I made a great achievement today(: I went for my 8am lessons!LIKE FINALLY.Hahaha!Social studies and E Math.I was thinking about skipping E Math,but Randee and Syira convinced me to go.Peer pressure at its best.Haha.

I'm hooked on Sean Paul's We Play Rough ft. Cecile.
Somehow.
I don't know how.
Nvm.

I gotta go now!Dinner soon.Where's Sazzzzzzzz):

i have interesting conversations with ppl like saz and mikoh.
you never know what we are gonna talk about.
HAHAHA:D

some say you're making use of me.
some say just forget it,don't even appreciate you.
but i say,we'll see how it goes.
hmm.

k,i'm crapping.
i'm off.
AU REVOIR

TAGBOARD'S A SCREW UP CURRENTLY):
will be back up soon!

I was listening to the song "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera today.
So as usual,I started singing that song.
Then slowly,as I truly understood the words I was singing, i felt tears running down my cheeks.
I finally understood the real meaning of that song.
As in the deep deep meaning.
I truly felt that song.

Same thing happened for "My First Storybook" by Rauzan.
The song's been on my playlist over and over again.
Things change.
It's true.
Even though we hate to admit it,we know sooner or later the situation will change.
Even friends will change.
No one wants friendship to fall aprt.
But just that ONE DAY,they would all fade away.
They will.
They will just drift away from your world.

My First Storybook is really a niceeeeeee and touching song.
Hits a nerve definitely.
mmhmm.

I'll put up the song.
I want you guys to hear it.
Really.

changed blogskin(:
i like it.
i like imageless skin.
mm.

anyway,big thanks to gadis for helping out with the BrandNewFeeling blogskin!
cause my knowledge of html went karat yseterday):
so sad.
but i drew what i wanted the thing to look like and she did the codes for me.
view it ok?
CLICK
i'm the administrator now.
uh huh uh huh.
haha..
also thanks to saz for cheering me on.
mikoh as well.
hahahahaha:D
and gadis couldn't stop saying WHO'S YOUR DADDY last night.
irritating,bodoh!

k,i gotta go do up the BrandNewFeeling blog.
needs a lot of work.
i'm out!

I need a blogskin soon:(
MY BLOG IS GETTING KANINA-ISHLY UGLY:(

when my blog is all pretty,i update ok?
off to find a blogskin.

i find myself hard to say the word i LOVE you.
i find myself hard to accept it when ppl tell me "i LOVE you"
the words been so overly used that ppl forget the meaning:(
it's so painful.
sigh.

know what i'm trying to say?
gah.
ppl say i love you like as if it's just another ordinary word.
just like the word hate.
the true meaning of the word has been misunderstood:(

i don't think i will be saying i LOVE you in a long time.
that's why i just show this sign <3.
mm

is this feeling called jealousy?
i think it is.
i get jealous whenever someone else tells my best friends they love him/her or they miss him/her.
I CANNOT TAKE IT CAN?
i cannot stand it when people from myspace wants to make friends with my best friends.
i really cannot.
i cannot stand my best friends to be stolen by other people.
i really cannot.
OMG,I SHOULD STOP MY POSESSIVE ATTITUDE.
:P

ignore me.
i was just crapping.

jojo's let it rain is playing over and over again on my mp3.
i <3 that song(:
lovely song.

Speakeasy on the 25th Nov.
date,anyone?
(((:

Singer:Jojo
Title:Let It Rain

Let it rain
Let it rain

From the first day I met ya
I notice your style
Had that B-Boy swagger not one of the crowd
And you talked like you knew me
Kept coming around and I fell for ya, yeah
Then as time kept going I noticed some things
Said our love kept growing
Wanted to run away cause the situation's in the past
Love never really last
Memories just had a hold of me

But I had to let go of the pain
Let love rain down on me (let it rain)
Cause you helped me open up my eyes
Show me things I could never see (let it rain)
Cause we can fight and we make up
Wanna see you when I wake up
I'm staying with you only (let it rain)
Cause I need you to show me how our love should really be (let it rain)

I use to wonder where were going
And where I wanted to be
Sitting alone all shocked up waiting for my destiny
Hearing songs on the radio wishing that could happen to me, oh no
Then when you came into the picture then I knew quickly
That we could build something so strong
Expect the best for the future
Forget about what used to be
I need you here all life long

But I had to let go of the pain
Let love rain down on me (let it rain)
Cause you helped me open up my eyes
Show me things I could never see (let it rain)
Cause we can fight and we make up
Wanna see you when I wake up
I'm staying with you only (let it rain)
Cause I need you to show me how our love should really be (let it rain)

Cause I see the sunlight whenever we touch
All day and all night is never too much (All that were how)
Afraid of my feelings and falling too deep
But everybody's had this happen one time or another
When you need someone to set your heart free

But I had to let go of the pain
Let love rain down on me (let it rain down down on me)
Cause you helped me open up my eyes
Show me things I could never see (let it rain)
Cause we could fight and we make up
I wanna see you when I wake up
I'm staying with you only (let it rain)
Cause I need you to show me how our love should really be (let it rain)

But I had to let go of the pain
Let love rain down on me (down on me baby)
Cause you help me open up my eyes
Show me things I could never see (let it rain)
Cause we can fight and we make up
Wanna see you when I wake up
I'm staying with you only (let it rain)
Cause I need you to show me how our love should really be (let it rain)

Let it rain
Let it rain
Let it rain

I <3 THIS SONG

i don't know how sky got into the picture:/
really,i didn't know.
i though it was just the four or five of us.
there was never her in it.
don't drag her in or anything la,ok?
i mean..
she doesn't really have anything to do with it
but you and you are bonkers abt jealousy and what nots:S
pls let this be solved soon

having piano lesson soon.
grrr.
i'm very tired.
BLEA):

kk,to please saz i'm updating.
that woman ah.

hey,don't worry about it k?
i was nvr mad at you or anything and i'm fine yeah.
i really believe when you say that the post you wrote was not about me.
so yup.
hope things are cleared!(:

i'm really not angry right now.
not angry at anyone.
but if no one can forgive then i rest my case with nothing more to say.
i don't want to be involved anymore?
i wanna lead my own world.
however,i know i started this whole thing,in a way.
and now,i want to forget about whatever i said.
i know whatever i felt should be kept in the heart.
some things should nvr be revealed right?
sigh.
oh wells.

today,i ate ben and jerry's ice cream.
i felt really good for the first time eating ice cream.
SOMEHOW.
i fed priscilla today!
HAHAHA.
that moron.
THANKS MS LIN FOR THE TREAT(:

i painted my nails purple!
hahaha
i was really bored.
then i just painted.
i hardly do these kinda shit.
but i found my aunt's one so i just used it.
lol.

i'm off.
ENOUGH NOT MY UPDATE SAZ?
hahaha.

loves(:

hello.
blogging in school now:D
with marion,lydia soh,randee and nan surrounding me.
HMMM.

i suddenly felt really bad yesterday for being online.
cause my mom said "yala.holidays play computer all day.forget parents".
then it suddenly hit me that i've not come out from my room more than twice a day whenever my parents are home.
either i'm doodling with fruity loops,writing rhymes,talking to people on line,blogging or just slacking or listening to songs:/
then i felt really bad.
cause it's holiday and i'm suppose to spend time with my parents eventhough it's like only 3 hours a day cause they're working from like morning till night.
hmm.
maybe it's true that teenage life has been reduced to a screen,a keyboard,a mouse and a couple of wires.
also the handphone.

wake up,kids.
it's time to spend time with your parents even though it's a couple of hours.
oh wells.
i guess i won't be online for a couple of days.
i gotta start spending time with my parents.
i mean i know my mom.
she may say it in a kinda "joking" way but deep down she still hurt.
whether it's a little bit or a lot.

k,end of my my like...
philosophical moment?
haha,whatever.

dad was really funny yesterday.
me:hey,have you called mrs alexis heng?
dad:YOUR TEACHER AH!DAMN IDIOT KNOW.I CALL FROM 11am-12PM ALL THE WAY AND NO GHOST ALSO ANSWER.she think i that free is it!
me:uh..why you yelling at me for?it's her you should be angry with!geeeez!
dad:peng..yala yala!

hmm,fathers.
tsk.
venting their angers whenever they like!
TSKK.
now this reminds me of an incident when i'm 10.
btw,i'm blogging with marion and randee surrounding me and i'mnot exactly the most comfortable person right now!
JUST THOUGH YOU WOULD LIKE TO KNOW.
[HINT TO THE TWO KIDS]

ftvgbhunjmik,o,randee says.
...
i still love erza (:[marion says]
anyway back to the history thing

i rmbed when i was 10 my dad really didnt want to answer a call from his colleagues.
i dunno what was the reason though.
then he got so fed up he answered.
then he felt so angry,he wanted to ram the bloody phone at me:/
ABUSE SEH.
aiya whatever.
venting anger as usual.

alrite,i g2g.
i might be thinking about going for a maths.
oh wells.

loves(:

Erza Efiera:

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Erza:

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Efiera:

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

i'm lacking in entertainment:(
so i'm doing all this rubbish when i'm sick.
oh wells.

nobody ever made me feel this way
i must stick with you~

the song's been sometime ago.
but plenty of memories whenever i listen to that song.
i still love it(:

trying to get marion on the phone.
apparently can't.
hmm.

3rd time blogging in a day.
just finished watching white chicks:D
i'm so friken pissed.
hehehehe.

here's some lyrics.
i love this song<3
beats are by the f word,freaky z!

Title: Teardrop
Artist: X`Statix

Shino:
These tears of rain/I shed from the years of pain
My dreams shattered and it pierced my brain
Shredded pieces of writings that get flushed in the drain
Walk through the cemetery paths memory lane
Here lies hiphop/I`ll remember the name
Yeah/Cause she was my first love and my first flame
Now get back to real-time/I`m still runnin the game
Still/spittin them verses that will pierce your brain
I wish I/could re-wind/and try to go back
So I try/to freeze-time/and spit on this track
My inner-soul translated thru this waveform
Immortalized even when the waves gone (waves gone)
I spit hard/till the mic/is saturated
But what happens when/all of this/evaporated
Huh?/It`ll prolly go to my iris
And when its all gone my third eyes gonna cry this (teardrops..)

Influent:
I dedicate these last tear drop that I shed
For all the mic memories that I ever had
And for all the wordplays that I ever shared
And all the audio emotions that I bared
With this pen and a pad/I write verses
Line by line/transform and emerges
From within the deepest regions of my soul
I purge the inner demons that I hold
But now I still rock mics in the spotlight
When the lights gone/yo we left in the dark side
That why I left this verse as a torchlight
To serve as a memory/in these dark nights
I ain`t the best/but I`ll give you my best
And I`ll/hang the mic when I need my rest
And I do/feel blessed to a certain extent
But I know that one day it will all end

Azrael:
What happens when the passion that you have for the pen is gone?
What happens when the beats stopsand doesnt go on?
Nobody paid attention and you feel torned
When its all fadin away/Is it time to move on?
As long as the mic is on/We keep on keepin on
But when its all for the fun/its really hard to push on
I remember the time when I fell in love with the beats and
the rhymes and the life
Embrace it like a belief/and make it a part of my life
It`s genuine love and I cannot describe/the feeling I had inside
Even if this became a joke/I wont swallow my pride
Coz it`s a part of me/And it will always be
And I will reminisce the days as an emcee
I hope you can see/I set myself free
I`m just fillin up this space that is empty
With rap poetry in low quantity
But high quality that pack potency
80 to 90 beats per minute the rate of my heart beat
Thats why hiphop is what my heart needs
And when hiphop is dead/that is when my heart bleeds
And when hiphop is dead/that is when my heart weeps

i'm going psycho:/
swear.

very boring.
very sick:(

i need to take a poop!
ayee.

yesterday band prac was fun but ended with scariness.
i don't wanna elaborate the scariness.
band was just really fun.
SO PROUD OF HANIS.
HER SOLO WAS NICEEE((:
WOOTS.
SHE'S GONNA KICK ASS ON THAT DAY AT ESPLANADE.
woohooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
hehe.

i better go now.
want to sleep.
still sick:(

A:i'm human afterall,right?
B:whaaaaaat?what did you say i don't understand:P
A:i have my flaws afterall,right?GEEZ.
B:oh,truetrue.heh:D

i'm gonna have to talk it out when i get my butt back to school when i see the ppl that i need to.
ppl who are not involved,i swear i'm gonna bite your bloody butt!
DO YOU KNOW HOW BLOWN OUT OF PROPORTION THIS THING IS?
geeez!
it was one post.
ONE MISTAKE THAT FIE MADE CAUSE FIE WAS FUMING MAD AND FIE WAS ALREADY CRYING FOR 3 HOURS STRAIGHT.
kanasai!
then you guys make it sound like as if i was trying to kill her and screw her up or smth!
GEEZ!
i'm gonna bite your butts i swear for those who are not involved.
COME TO THINK OF IT,NO ONE IS INVOLVED EXCEPT ME AND HER.
cause it was my post!
ONLY I WILL TALK TO HER.

fuck off,world.

I am worth $1,341,938 on HumanForSale.com

I'M SO CHEAP:(
hahaha.
nvm.
i'm not in school.
guess why?
I FELL SICK.
FEVER:(
i'm damn sad now.
wanted to go online again yesterday to talk to saz then i fell asleep:(((((((((((
I'M DAMN SAD NOW LA!
hahahaha.
hehehehe.

kk,gonna watch high school musical.
GOODBYE:P